Finding a positive..

Well as you all read on GP- The doctor thinks that the next step is to see an Infertility Specialist. I know its the right and logical thing to do, I guess I am just scared. I never in a million years thought I would hear those words, much less be in the position I am in. A part of me just still wants to be one of those girls who "just gets pregnant" on their own...and not have to make that next step of a specialist. It can never just go as planned for me. Like I said before, every month I try and look at a positive that I can take from this situation...
I am truly blessed with a wonderful family and a wonderful husband, house and fur-babies:). I am alot more fortunate than alot of people and I have to count my blessings and not be selfish for the things I can not control. Patience is a virtue and something I have learned all througout my life.
For those of you who don't know, my mom got diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis when I was 5. She used to walk with the help of a cane when I was young and then moved to a walker when I was in middle school and when I was in high school she finally moved into a wheelchair. Growing up, I had alot of responsibility. I had to take care of my Mom as if she were my own child in a sense...I had to help her with things she could not do, that the average person took for granted. She struggled with infertility for two years having us also, and then she was diagnosed with MS when I was five. What a strong woman! She feels bad sometimes and wishes that she could do more. I wouldn't change her for the world though....she has taught me courage, strength, and patience. If I can just strive to be like her, I will be an awesome woman.
So, just when I think my life can't get any worse. I have to take a step back and realize what I have. I hope that I can encourage people and help people with all that I have been through. :)
Thanks for listening!