Good ol' AF is here..

So my little trooper egg did not make it. At least he made it through the mass of 30 little/cystic eggs, so I have to give him credit for that right?!

I was spotting the past few days but I chalked it up to being from the HSG. I still had little hope that maybe if I actually O'ed on my own this time that this would be it....but Nope..AF is here today. Sometimes there are days when I think that getting pregnant is never going to happen for me and other days I am great with the whole idea of seeing an RE. Well, today(I am sure its from horomones too) but I am feeling a little down today. Why cant I be one of those people that it just happens...especially before an IUI or a IVF...why cant I have that miracle??

I left a message for the nurse to call me back because she said she wanted to mark when CD1 was, so I have a feeling she is going to want to do some more bloodwork on CD3 and then we will proceed with an IUI. I guess I am just nervous for whats to come. Are we going to do one IUI and that do the trick or is this going to be nothing but a year of empty promises like last year? Like the song on this profile, there are so many questions I have that I can't answer and its frustrating to say the least. I have put it all in God's hands and that's all I can do.